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I waited 5 months before reaching out to the obs and I regret every day I waited. It was people on this forum who urged me to do it but I was afraid that if I did, my wife would get upset, and it would push her towards him. I was scared.

Someone on this forum recommended an online search company and I think it cost me $20 to get a profile. In the profile was an email address so one day I sent an email from a newly created account and I simply said if your husband is a police officer and he works at this high school, there's something you need to know about your husband and my wife.

I think it was a couple of hours later that she replied with yes he does and what do I need to know? Here's my phone number if you want to call me. I didn't call, I replied via email, and I told her everything I knew. I told her I only have text (sext) screenshots from the day I discovered what was going on and she asked me to send them to her, which I did

That evening I told my wife and she had the balls to get upset with me. She said why didn't you talk to me about this before you did it? What if she comes into the school and causes a scene? What if I lose my job?

I said I didn't talk to you about it because I knew there was a chance you could talk me out of it. And where was all of this concern for your job while you were doing it? What if she had discovered your messages on his phone, came into your work, caused a scene, and you got fired? Our family would have lost its health insurance. Did you ever consider us?

That instantly took the wind out of her sails. She said I wish you had forewarned me just in case she did come in.

So you want me to look out for YOUR best interests yet you had NO PROBLEM ignoring what was in the best interest of me and our family. How hypocritical of you :/

I apologize to the obs for waiting 5 months. I had no right withholding that information from her. She told me several times she was very thankful that I had reached out and to not be upset with myself for not reaching out sooner, she said she totally understands why I waited.

Turns out this wasn't the first time he had cheated on her. In fact, while he was carrying on with my wife, his wife, at 35 years old, was waiting to have surgery to find out if she had breast cancer. What a great husband, huh?

So after his affair with my wife ended, he moved on to the social worker at the school. They had sex not only in his car but on her desk in her office at the school

And yet his wife is still with him. She and I communicated via text for a while and then it stopped. I got the impression she is very codependent and honestly afraid to let him go

Please reach out to the obs and let her know what's going on, she deserves it

Had a very frank discussion with WW last night. I made it clear I wouldn’t let her keep rewriting the narrative that me or the affair made her do what she did. She kept insisting it was irresistible, that she had no control over it, but obviously that’s bollocks. I also mentioned that I was reconsidering approaching OBS.

The flip side is, she said she thinks she’s fallen out of love with me. Which is crushing to hear, but not that surprising. On the other hand, I keep wondering myself if I truly love the person that did this to me.

She said maybe we should separate, and I said fine, then leave. But I’m not going anywhere, I did nothing wrong. "But we can’t afford to support two households." OK, then stay and work this out with me. So she has drafted an NC letter and we’re going to go over it and send it together. She’s going to do IC, and the plan is still to do MC when the time comes. We have to try for ourselves and the kids. In the meantime, we both need to get our heads straight.

Finding it pretty tough though. Something of a pyrrhic victory. My heart’s on the floor and I’m struggling to keep it together in the day-to-day stuff.

My position on the OBS situation is: I’m not in any state to make big decisions, I’m too much of a mess, and while I absolutely see the arguments for it, I want to know I’m doing it for the right reasons (I only feel spiteful right now).

I just do not understand the hangup with telling OBS. I really don't. If my wife's AP was married I'd have been all over that, "right reasons" be damned. Would I do it out of spite? Not really. Revenge or satisfaction for turning his life upside down like they did mine? You bet. Yes, I'd feel horrible for his wife, but I firmly believe she deserves to know. I'd be doing her a service.

Regardless of my reasoning tho, it's still the right thing to do. If I'm giving someone else their agency back, it doesn't matter what level of satisfaction I would get from it. It's the right thing to do.

And I wouldn't tell my wife I was doing it either. I'd just do it. Then if it gets back to her I would know she's still in contact with her AP.

She said maybe we should separate, and I said fine, then leave. But I’m not going anywhere, I did nothing wrong. "But we can’t afford to support two households." OK, then stay and work this out with me.

This doesn't sit right with me. You can't really bargain a spouse back. This has to be something she wants to do. If she's going to be white knuckling her way through this like an alcoholic being forced to stop drinking it's not going to work.

I suggest contacting a solicitor or 3 and get the lay of the land. Just to figure out what divorce would look like, and don't be shy about letting her know you're doing it. I'm not saying to rush out and file for a divorce, but it wouldn't hurt to arm yourself with some knowledge and send her a message that you're not messing around. Let her sit with that for a couple of days and see what she does.

Good for you for standing up for yourself, Guzman. I bet it made you feel a little better.

Double down on your efforts to find and inform the OBS. When you do, it will suck in the moment. But don't be surprised if the OBS eventually thanks you. No matter what you will be able to look back at your actions and know that you acted with truth and integrity.

Your WW will not have that luxury, ever.

One of the best gifts in my life was this info as being the BS and knowing NOTHING of a 2+ year affair. I NEVER answer numbers I don't recognize but for some reason at 3pm fri Aug 14th I did. What she shared was horrible but the TRUTH with screen shots to back it up. I can never thank her enough. We kept in contact for a couple days to compare notes. What I realized right away is that she was luring me in for a revenge affair of her own or just to hurt my W more. She had kicked out my wife's AP. She told me "your wife fucked up my life and I'm going to fuck hers up too". She knew she couldn't publicly slander my wife's business but was looking to do any other damage to her possible. But she gave me so much shit for not leaving the house/moving out right away. That didn't sit right with me, and I didn't want to leave my home/kids as I didn't do anything wrong and I wanted the stable home base to me ours. She told me she had a rentable finished basement that I could stay in for free for the time being until I figured things out. She wanted to meet for drinks the day after she sent me the screen shots. It got real weird real quick so I blocked her number. But, I still wish I could have given her a more proper thank you.

One of the best gifts in my life was this info as being the BS and knowing NOTHING of a 2+ year affair. I NEVER answer numbers I don't recognize but for some reason at 3pm fri Aug 14th I did. What she shared was horrible but the TRUTH with screen shots to back it up. I can never thank her enough. We kept in contact for a couple days to compare notes. What I realized right away is that she was luring me in for a revenge affair of her own or just to hurt my W more. She had kicked out my wife's AP. She told me "your wife fucked up my life and I'm going to fuck hers up too". She knew she couldn't publicly slander my wife's business but was looking to do any other damage to her possible. But she gave me so much shit for not leaving the house/moving out right away. That didn't sit right with me, and I didn't want to leave my home/kids as I didn't do anything wrong and I wanted the stable home base to me ours. She told me she had a rentable finished basement that I could stay in for free for the time being until I figured things out. She wanted to meet for drinks the day after she sent me the screen shots. It got real weird real quick so I blocked her number. But, I still wish I could have given her a more proper thank you.

You’re just wasting your time if you don’t tell the OBS. All the pain and anguish you’re going through now will come back to the same levels after you do it. You need to do it now so there is less of a chance of surprises down the road.

You’re hurting. You get better each day. It might not be felt but it’s there. Until the truth is out that clock doesn’t really start.

You’re prescribing yourself a whole bunch of future pain to not throw a bit more on the pile now. We need your mind to be set and focused, we all want to see you get better. The way that happens is through execution, strategy and really understanding your simply doing something no good person should ever fathom doing. You are much, much stronger than you think. A lot of your posts refer to your precarious psyche but if I’m being honest your actions suggest otherwise. You’ve been doing really well given the circumstances